i haven’t cared for someone in a long time — i truly, genuinely cared for you.
i’d been with lovers before you. and yes, i still deeply care for one of them, but i forgot how intricate and layered it was to be intertwined with someone you would do anything for in a heartbeat.
you were a special one, e.
i woke up thinking of you this morning and i missed the smell of you — burying my nose into your neck — our warm selves intertwined.
i didn’t understand why i’ve been so sad and grieving this way.
now i understand, due to the intricacy, vulnerabilty, and valuability of what we had.